My last post brought up a few questions about what line of work I have acquired! Oh, you guys are so cute – ME, with a REAL job?… I’ve mentioned that I ‘work’ here and there on my blog, but I suppose I really haven’t gotten into a full discussion about it.
My husband J is a contractor, self-made* and managed, he has energy that knows no bounds, impulse matched with smarts, and his company has seen so much success in so little time that people see him as a huge competitor in his industry. I mean, we’ve been here about three years, so he’s really made a name for himself in that time. Of course, running your own company requires a lot of hutzpah. Along with a crazy drive, a mind that never seems to rest, and the capability to
They say that behind every successful man is an even more successful woman.
Ladies & Gents, I am that woman. But who I am really? What is my role in this growing company?
I am the company bookkeeper, graphic designer, website creator, social media guru, human resources, payroll, accounts payable & receivable, office manager, secretary, editor, invoice & estimate maker, book bounder, bank depositer, public relations, personal assistant to CEO… Try putting that on a business card with my name on it. And then add “Work-At-Home-Mother” of two. It’s a true balancing act that I never really had a grip on, instead I felt like I was a circus juggler, life throwing more and more balls at me and I didn’t have enough hands to grasp at them.
Is it any wonder I recently suffered a few panic attacks and have been diagnosed with some kind of anxiety to add to my post partum depression?
So what does my day look like?
In between keeping the baby on a schedule (again, because he’s STILL not sleeping through the night) I try to manage a household and a business, but to be honest, in the past few months both have been slipping. My breaking point involved becoming overwhelmed to the point of tears and deep breathing, a lot of talking and even a trip to the doctor to realise that I can’t do it all, not in my state at the moment, maybe never again. I’ve taken the time to STOP doing everything and reorganize things.
I now have a better grip of my household, which is really a sigh of relief. Laundry and cleaning and cooking and RAISING CHILDREN can be exhausting, running a company along with it is impossible for me to keep a handle on. So this year I’ve stepped back, and I now have the title of “Social Media Guru” – which means that while baby is napping (or even awake!) I can tweet, and facebook, and blog FOR THE COMPANY. It’s a sigh of relief. I mean, I still have my moments and I tell J, “NO, I can’t do this. It’s too much.” And it was okay.
I mean, I’m still going to end up doing some of the CEO’s Personal Assistant work – J calls me numerous times per day to “remind me” to print this, or fill out this form, or sign this, or email him something he forgot – but even he is getting more organized with it all.
So “technically” I’m a “WAHM”. Work At Home Mama. But because I don’t have set office-at-home hours, I think of myself more of a mama who works sometimes!
ps. And while I hope this post clears up any questions regarding my job, I realise I’ve brought up certain points about postpartum depression, anxiety, and panic attacks – while I’m still in early recovery I can’t find the words to fully describe and understand what I am going through. I’ve endured PPD before, but never with anxiety or panic, so I’m just working through, slowly, and day by day. Email me if you really want to talk about it! xo